Since my last post I have officially graduated. My diploma is sitting on my dresser and I am reminded every day that now I am supposed to be more grown up then I was before. Who wants to do that? It seems like it would be way more fun to not grow up. I'm excited about a new season though, change brings growth and growth is good.
Up until graduation I felt like I was going at 100 mph, since then things have slowed down. I was able to spend a week at home. It was great. I slept, hung out with my fam, and just enjoyed being at home for a few days. That was the first time I had caught a breath of air in months. I'm naturally someone who loves to stay busy, but a break is necessary in order to gain speed again.
I wasn't quite ready to leave my nice break at home, but the next segment of my summer was beginning and my suitcases were packed so it was time to get on the road again. I started work a week ago, beginning a familiar journey but new at the same time. No longer am I an event staff traveling with the same team all summer, but now I get to PC the events and work with each of the different teams. I get to build relationships with the schools that the events are hosted at and with the youth pastors that attend the events. This role is one that my last two summers has helped prepare me for, but there is also a ton to learn. I like the new challenge. I enjoy getting to have more of a hand on the administrative side of the event. I am still adapting to the fact that I am not an intern- no one tells me when to go to lunch, when to have team time, or when to leave- I just do it. I have my own desk and my own tasks. I love it, I enjoy everything that I get to do as part of the position.
I am still trying to get a grasp this summer on what it's like to not really have a place to call home, to be somewhere that is so familiar to me yet not at the same time, to jump into the middle of a group of people who all work together year round and another group of people who will travel together the entire summer. It takes an adjustment especially after being at school with people who know me well. I am learning to enjoy the moments I do have to myself, because they will be rare once we get on the road. I am starting to get into a routine of going to bed early and waking up at 6:30. I miss Olivet apartments, bunk beds, and my roommate. These are just a few of the things that remind me that I'm now a college grad.
It's back to living out of a suitcase. I love traveling, but the suitcase part is not my forte! Maybe I'll utilize the dresser and closet at the hotel for the next couple weeks until it's time to pack up to go on the road again. I haven't decided yet.
My stuff is so spread out right now, I don't even know where certain items of clothing are or a certain book that I want to read. Maybe it's at school, my closet, my car, my suitcase, hotel room, my office...who ever knows anymore? While, this is frustrating at times I know that one day my stuff will all be in 1 place again, or most likely 2. In the time being though, I know that none of that "stuff" matters. It doesn't matter whether or not I have a "home" per say, it just matters that I am following where God leads and that I am trusting for Him to provide for my physical, emotional, social, and all other needs. I'm thankful for that promise.
