Ask the questions

I have definitely gone through my share of asking the Lord why. Of trying to comprehend the reason things have happened in my life, but what I'm learning is that the Lord doesn't have to tell me why. The Lord cares about me so much and He doesn't need my plans or outline for my life. He has it all under control and has His own plan. I'm learning that sometimes that plan doesn't make sense, but it's in those moments when I draw nearer to the Lord. When I have to just let go and decide that I don't need to be in control. That is when the Lord is most evident in our lives. Is it easy? No. Is it worth it? Absolutely. I think about Mary, it didn't make sense to her at all that she was pregnant, yet she trusted the Lord and she allowed His plan to prevail.

I used to think that asking the Lord why was bad, that it meant I wasn't a good Christian. I have learned that the season of asking questions can be good, that it can cause us to grow and to develop as followers of Christ. So if you're asking questions, don't grow weary, don't feel like you are wrong in that. Ask the questions, wrestle, let the Lord challenge you and stretch you as you grow in Him.

Things I've learned in this: not to withdraw from others, while its hard to expose our questions and struggles the Lord Desires for us to be a part of community even in this season. Let others speak truth into your life, don't be afraid of what they'll think- expose your weaknesses and let them walk with you. I had to learn this multiple times the hard way.  Ive learned how important my time with Jesus is daily, even when we feel like all we are doing is asking questions and we might even be frustrated, when we turn to him first despite those things He is glorified. Hebrews 11- what a testament to walking by faith when things don't make sense. We can learn from those who went before us, from others who followed Christ.

Keep asking. Keep growing. The Lord loves us unconditionally even in the midst of our questioning. I'm grateful for this promise. I serve a faithful God!!